Ka'Cit's Haven - Page 192

He didn’t want to hear her say it—to say he wasn’t worth it…to hear those words would kill him.

“Not me,” he finally managed to say.

He could never give her everything she deserved.

He would never be enough.

“You deserve better. I’m not… I’m not human. I’m hardly even Merssi.”

There was a reason he didn’t talk about this and if his eyes could leak water like hers did when she was feeling deep sorrow, he was sure they’d be leaking now.

“Ka’Cit…I don’t care…”

He held her away from him then, his gaze forceful. “You don’t understand. I am defective. I will never be able to give you children. Did Riv tell you that?” Everything was ripping apart within him. “You can never have a family with me. My seed does not produce young.”

Her gaze studied him as he continued. “In our past, momors and sarans used to sacrifice males like me to the gods…They thought the gods were angry at them for giving them chids like me. Those who weren’t cast out like I was met that end, but my momor was too weak. She spared me and sent me away. I’ve been alone since then. I’m destined to be alone. It is a curse I do not wish for the one I love most to bear. I—”

Nee-ya’s lips against his cut off the rest of his speech and despite that he knew he should push her away, his body melted against her lips.

This was why he’d stayed so far away. This was why he hadn’t even called.

He couldn’t resist her.

He’d never be able to.

“Nee-ya…”

“Shh…don’t speak.”

As her tongue dipped into his mouth, brushing over his fangs before stroking against his, Ka’Cit let out a groan.

The hover car was just on the edge of the plain now and he knew that soon, he’d have to say goodbye one more time.

The thought made his insides clench and twist.

He didn’t know how he was going to do it again.

So he held her.

He pulled her to him, his mouth crashing against hers.

She somehow found her way into his lap and he gripped her hips. He could feel her sweet soft body underneath her clothes and all he could think about was that time on the service satellite, her body beneath his, the taste of her in his mouth.

Oh how he wanted to take her right here, right now—to drink on her sweet nectar till he was sated.

“Ka’Cit,” she breathed his name on his lips.

“Nee-ya,” he whispered.

“I love you too.”

His entire body stiffened.

The only thing that still swelled and jerked was within his trousers, straining to reach her.

Had he heard correctly?

“S-say that again?”