Little Song Bird Is Pregnant - Chapter 87 - What Is Love?

Chapter 87 – What Is Love?

Hachin watched as Feng and Wren conversed with each other. They both had bright smiles on their faces. Their eyes clearly shone with love.

'Love… is this what love really is?'

He did not have the luck to see his parents' love. They both were very reserved people and would not even touch their hands in front of him. And before he could even ask them what love was, they were gone.

He grew up without knowing the meaning of that word..

Hachin glanced at Hua Ro who was looking at him intensely. his hand subconsciously went to his stomach. 'Is this how love was supposed to start.. I never intended to become pregnant. I never intend to be taken from my home….'

"Hachin, hey what's wrong," Wren tugged at his sleeve.

"Y-yeah nothing. Just thinking of this drink's taste. How did the meaty taste just disappear?"

"It's my magic concoction,"' Feng said proudly. "I'm amazing,"

"Of course, you are,"' Wren hugged him from behind and kissed his cheeks.

Seeing this Hachin felt lost. 'What do I have with Hua? Is it love.. no, it's dependency.. was it pleasure?… it was only comfort…..what is our relationship…..'

"I.. I want to rest for a bit," he mumbled, placing the empty cup on the table.

"Rooms are to the right corridor. Choose anyone you want."

"Thanks," he bolted out of there.

Hus Ro followed after him silently like a shadow.

He glanced back. "I want to be alone."

"Why?"

"Why do you mean why? I said I want to be alone,"

"Were you jealous because your first crush was being intimate with his mate," Hua said that stunned him.

Hachin glanced back with a glare. 'if it was that I would have been calm.. but no.. it's you.. I don't understand you. I don't know what you are to me. I don't love you and you don't love me. All you want is this child growing in me… is that a strong enough bond?'

Holding his stomach, he ran into one of the rooms.

"Hachin are you in pain! Is the baby okay?" he shouted from outside.

Hachin bit his lips anxiously. "Just leave me alone! I want to be alone.! Can't you understand that?!"

"What's the ruckus here?" Feng and Wren joined him. "why are you shouting so much?"

"I think his stomach is hurting," he anxiously peered at the door.

Feng gently knocked. "Is your stomach hurting?"

"No.. I just want some alone time.. tell him to go away."

"You heard the guy." Feng peered at Hua Ro. "just give him some time. You don't have to stick close to him 24/7,"

"He is my mate, you don't need to give me any advice," he glared at him.

"Suit yourself." Feng tugged at Wren's hand and they both walked into th nearby room.

Giggling slightly, Feng closed the door. "shh come here." he pulled his little mate over to the corner of the room and nodded towards the door. "It opens up next door. If you want to talk to your friend you can. I think he is having some trouble,"

Wren became anxious. "What kind of trouble?"

"Don't know. He didn't look so good. Just go and talk."

Wren kissed his lips softly and entered the door.

"I'll be out here," Feng whispered and closed the door.

Wren silently walked over to the bed where the bed sheet was piled up like a mountain. He sat on the corner and gently tapped on it. "Hachin…"

Hachin pulled back the sheet and bit and peered at him.

"What's wrong?"

"I don't know… I don't know what's wrong… Wren. It feels so weird.."

Wren placed a hand on his stomach. "the baby?"

"no… Everything. The baby, my so-called mate, my life.. it feels like I have no control over anything…" he mumbled softly.

"That's life. We have no control over what's going to happen next."

Hachin sat up letting the sheets pile on his lap. "Wren, it's not the same. I'm not the same as you…. you.. you have a mate that loves you so much… i.."

"Did something happen with Hua?"

"No, nothing. That's what I'm telling you… nothing happens between us. I feel like.. our relationship has hit the rock bottom. He claims to be my mate but I don't feel that connection. Only my child does. He craves for his touches… but.. i.. I don't know.." he started to silently sob. "I want to be loved to…"

Wren hugged him silently. "You are loved. I love you. My family loves you so much,"

"No that's different. I want the love of a mate. I don't feel like I'm getting any,"

Wren frowned slightly. "is it.. ahem.. the love making part?"

Hachin blushed red… "Yes and no. I mean everything. I want that love you and Feng share. I want that warm feeling in my soul, not just in my stomach."

He peered up at Wren. "I just feel like we started our relationship at a wrong point. Getting Pregnant and getting to know each other feels like there is something in between. I feel like whatever relations we have are only because of the child…. I fear.. I fear the day I give birth"

"What if he leaves me? That's what he requested from the elders. To have me with him until the child is born. He will take the child and leave me. Isn't that what is going to happen…"

He started to sob loudly.

"I'm so scared, Wren. I don't like this feeling."

Wren hugged him tightly, peering at the door. It was slightly ajar. The person outside was definitely listening.

'But why isn't he coming in? He needs to comfort his mate. Tell him he is wrong and that he loves him…'

Instead, Hua Ro just stood out the door staring at them.

Wren gritted his teeth slightly. 'Maybe Hachin is right. This Hua guy doesn't like him… he is only using Hachin for his child. Fuck I hate this…'

He tightened his hold on him.

"Hachin. Whatever happens, I will be there for you. Me and my mate are your family now. think of us your brothers. We will always be with you. Just don't think of things that bring you down,"

Sniffling softly, Hachin peered up at him. "You are my family you idiot….." he touched his stomach again.

"Is it really hurting?"

"It's stupid… It hurts when I'm not near him. I don't like it…" he sobbed even loudly. "Make the pain go away…"

"shhh…" Wren silently peered at the door. The shadow that lingered there was gone. 'Fuck that guy…'

After sobbing for a bit, Hachin fell asleep. He placed him on the bed and covered him with a thin sheet.

Hachin was mumbling in his sleep and his eyes were still tearing up.

He gently wiped his eyes. 'I feel so… bad.. I don't know what to do to cheer you up.'

The door opened silently. Hua Ro stood there with an iron barrel.

Wren glared at him. he gesture for him to go out.

Instead, he came close. Placed the barrel close to the bed and opened it.

Inside there were huge chunks of ice.

The room instantly became ten degrees cooler.

Wren watched the guy walk out again.

Hachin stopped mumbling and fell asleep deeply.

'Fuck this…' he ran out of the room and grabbed him by his shirt. "what do you think you are doing? Huh? You only want the child?"

He remained silent.

"Tell me?! What is Hachin to you?!"

Hua Ro refused to look at him.

"Fuck you! so you were using him as a baby machine?! just you wait… there will come a day Hachin will hate you. And that day I will kill you."

Hua Ro chuckled dryly and walked away.

Wren stood there clenching his fist. He did not want to kill him now. if he did, the baby inside Hachin will start to hurt him. he did not want that…..

'just you wait.. I will kill you for hurting him.'

"Wren?" Feng held his hand. "is everything okay? Why are you in the hallway? I thought you were…"

"Feng, when the time comes, will you help me kill the roc?"

Feng looked stunned at this. His mate has always been very sweet, he does not provocatively choose violence.

"will you?/" he repeated looking into his eyes.

The eyes were filled with rage.

Feng nodded. "Anything you want. I will help you with anything you want."

"Thank you…. that man. He does not deserve a mate. He does not deserve to live…." he mumbled.

Feng hugged him tightly patting his stiff back. "Cry, if you feel aggrieved, cry Wren. Don't keep it in."

"no, I want to hold on to that rage.. I want to harness that to defeat him. I want to defeat that man who destroyed my home. I want to kill the people who hurt my mom.. and last…. I want to meet my father.. I want to see what was so great about leaving his family behind…."

"I want that rage to get strong Feng.."

Feng shook his head. "no, you don't need that. What you need is practice… I know of a place where you can increase your powers exponentially,"

Wren looked down at him with interest. "Where?"

"the academy of Rele,"