Lord Shadow - Chapter 1912: The Dark Side of A Person

Chapter 1912: The Dark Side of A Person

When Odin put his hand on the tree, it saw the experience of Azief and Alsurt. And in front of Odin is Alsurt.

Odin spoke to Alsurt, acknowledging that he had known about the relation between him and Alsurt

This is the connection.

No, to be more accurate, Odin found Alsurt because he had a connection with him

And even though Azief did not know the true intention of Odin, he does feel Odin feeling.

Odin shielded his mind .

Even though Odin gives him his memories, all the other stuff beside that is shielded from Azief mind.

But he does have his intuition. Odin wanted to meddle in this cause and effect.

That is why he met with Alsurt.

Wargod had explained to him, many beings that knows and deduced Azief future, avoids him like a plague.

Because they did not want to get entangled in this cause and effect

Once they enter, it is hard to extricate themselves.

Because when they enter, they could only either be chess pieces and the chess player.

And it is hard to be one of the chess player.

Most of them would only be the chess pieces in the board.

Because the one playing this game is not some Supreme Lord or only a Sovereign realm player.

This is a game between the End of All Source, between the Creation of All Source, this is a game that has already has its ending

It is written and when that One wills it to be, then so it will be!

This is a game that many people did not think one could win.

But Odin seems different. Azief could tell from his feeling. That he wanted to meddle. Wanted to be included in the maelstrom

Azief look at Alsurt talking to Odin. He could see Alsurt faces when he discovers that his interaction with Azief was discovered.

“Alsurt!” Azief thought to himself.

He had never forgotten this Ice Giant

He saw how Alsurt sat down and sighed.

His sigh seems to signify his helplessness. Azief is closer to Alsurt. So, his heart leans to Alsurt

Both of these being is silent and time seems to stand still.

Odin thoughts are shielded from Azief.

This prison that Odin had created for Alsurt is a cruel prison.

Time does not really matter for this prison.

Who knows whether ten thousand years passes or only a second had passed?

Both feel the same.

The longevity and the lifespan is hard to feel, and the imprisonment felt like eternity.

Eternity itself is a concept that no mortal could ever comprehend.

When the numbers reached a million, the human mind could no longer make sense of it and visualize it clearly

If a million is already a hard concept to grasp, what more if it is eternity?

Eternity of imprisonment….but maybe in this prison, only a few second had passed.

Or maybe the world, the galaxy, and the universe itself has ben destroyed and reborn and eternity had come and pass

Only a soft sigh could be heard, sighing at the unchanging scenery of the prison.

Then Azief heard that Alsurt said that he always felt that he was special.

And that is why the Ice Giant taught him thing

Then Alsurt talk about fate and destiny. And then this memory speed up but Azief could see through it

And then it stopped and Azief could hear Alsurt words.’

“It was incredible. His luck and fortune that is. It is the kind of luck you would rarely

He paused for a second and then added

“No, it is more accurate to say that it is a very peculiar accumulation of luck and fortune. The aura of luck shrouding him seems to pervades to every dimension, to every parallel world, to every reality in the Multiverse”

Smiling bitterly, he then said

“That is when I knew that his destiny would not be ordinary. That kind of luck is no longer just luck. With that kind of amount, it could also become a very burdening curse”

“It is quite the sight. That is why I taught him something” he paused for a second and then a smile formed on the corner of his mouth as he said

“And now you are here”

Even though that is the initial reason why Alsurt teaches him, Azief knows when people are sincere to him

Sincerity sometimes did not come out of nowhere.

There are people who give their sincerity unreservedly.

But most of the time, it is only by connecting with one another, knowing each other, that finally sincerity between two people can come through

Sometimes, there is no reason for hatred.

And sometimes, there is also no reason for love.

But most of the time, there is a reason for hatred.

And most of the time, there is also a reason for love

And the same for sincerity.

Azief knows this.

And that Divine Monkey reminded him of this.

Maybe…..that Divine Monkey had expected what he would see now.

And wanted to remind him….not to throw other people sincerity to the ground.

And when Odin said that “Someday, he will come here” Azief could see that Alsurt smile

He never stopped believing in him.

And knowing what he knows now, and knowing how childish his promise was at that time, the fact that Alsurt trust him and believe in him, it fills him with a different kind of warm feeling

The feeling of being acknowledged.

Azief is a flawed person.

Most of the time, he managed to hide it.

Not Katarina, not Sofia, not Loki, not even Sina could see that side of him

The darkest side of him. The side of him that he wanted to hide. That he wanted to keep a secret.

The cowardly part of him. The despicable and pathetic side of him. Everyone has one. And he also has one.

And like everyone else, he did not want anyone to see it.

Even more so, the people closest to him

Sofia always said to him, bare his heart to her.

But how could he bare it all, when even he is disgusted with that part of himself?

The weak part of himself.

The dark feelings, the envy, the jealousy, the rage

Of not being acknowledged. Of not being loved. Of not being…..liked. Alone. Lonely in a dark corner only he knows.

Everyone has this side.

The side that wanted everything to end. That wanted to rage.

Wanted to do terrible things to other people. Wanted to do terrible things to themselves. Terrible deeds and terrible acts

The dark fantasy in one mind.

And everyone manage to live without enacting or entertaining on these dark fantasies.

But the dark fantasies is there. Like some dark secret one could not show. And this is the thing he could not show to anyone.

Because he did not think anyone would understand. He wanted fame. Fortune. Famous. All of those superficial things just like any other person

But underpinning all of that was his desire to be seen.

To be acknowledged.

Loved and liked

Even now, even when he is now on Earth, the most powerful men in the world and he appears to be lofty, overlooking all creation like some kind of a god, seemingly unaffected by fame and fortune, he knows that the old him, would love this

This adoration, this fear, this awe. And feeling that, he is ashamed.

Of course, one would say, that is the old him. And not the him today. He is wiser than he is before.

Wisdom comes after failure.

Rarely it comes during a time of happiness and success.

And he failed a lot. And because of that he grows. Sometimes, it took him some time to understand the lesson

Sometimes, he strays. Sometimes, he stumbles.

And they are time when he was completely lost.

And after all of the twist and turn, Azief had reached this point.

He had experienced countless of life and experience countless of emotion and right now, the one he is right now, is the ideal him in many people minds.

The Death Monarch that is strong, full of power and disdain the worldly entanglements

But that feeling persist. And exist. Sometimes, in a rare blue moon

But one of his most ardent desire, was not fame, fortune, or awe.

Only to be acknowledged. He was there under that tree, talking and laughing with Alsurt.

And someone believe him.

And could use him.

And he could be useful to someone.

Azief might seem to be like a god.

But he has the heart of a mortal.

And while he had grown up, certain scars never goes away

He doubted people love for him and he doubted their affection, he doubted their concerns and he doubted all of these

Because could they all love him, if he is not what he is today? This question sometimes fills his heart and at those time, his dark side could not help but make an appearance.

He was unloved.

He was disliked.

He was alone.

And he was ignored.

Some is because of his mistake. Some because of society. Some because others are just being mean.

But he tried…..by god, he tried so hard.

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