The Werewolf's Vampire Mate - Chapter 606 - Honesty

Chapter 606 – Honesty

Jabi 

My arms are wrapped around him in a tight embrace but something feels off with him. We are both naked, he has this dreamy expression on his face but I know him and I can tell that something is wrong. 

Something must have happened on his way back. 

I don't know what it is but it feels like it is something that he wants to get off his chest. "Do you want to talk,'' I ask him as I push myself closer to him. He lets out a sigh and then I find my eyes on him. He is looking at me too and there is a lot of guilt on his face. 

Slowly, he detaches from me and sits up on the bed, revealing his chest and lower abdomen. I pull the covers off me and sit up next to him. We just had sex, things are good. Why does he look so in his head right now? 

"I need to tell you something but you have to promise not to get mad." 

I shrug because I can't make that promise unless I know what he has done. It doesn't actually feel like he has actually done anything. More of, he thinks he has but it might now be the case. 

"What happened?'' 

I plan on being very understanding. I don't want to fight with him, I don't want to have any issues with him. All I want to feel is happiness and that is the mood I want to stay in at this moment. He just came back and I am so grateful to the gods for bringing him back to me. 

He runs his hands through his hair and the frustration oozes out of him. There is one thing that Darrien has never been and that is scared. He might be anything but I always used to wonder why he didn't ever have fear. He is the kind of person that would walk into a fire without even thinking twice—to protect the one he loves. Right now, he looks so scared. 

What could he have possibly done to make him this scared? 

I reach for him and he closes his eyes as I cup his face gently. There is a soft smile on my face. This is me assuring him that nothing is going to happen. I will not let whatever this is mess things up between us. I love him too much and whatever this is, is probably inconsequential. 

"You can talk to me, you know that right?'' 

He nods his head. 

"Do you remember the person I talked about? The one that helped me find you when that bastard took you?'' 

I nod.

He is watching me, there is still hesitation in his voice. He is scared even though he doesn't need to be. "She is an ex. Rather, she is the only real relationship I have ever had in all of my life." 

I freeze at his words. 

I don't want to have a reaction because I want him to always be able to talk to me but I don't have a choice in the matter because I have always thought that I was the first real relationship that Darrien had. He has talked about numerous partners but he has never told me about anything real. Knowing that she exists and he didn't tell me about it makes me feel a little jealous. 

"Oh,'' I manage. I don't want to make it obvious that this is actually getting to me. 

I trust Dar but at the same time, knowing that there is something that I haven't been aware of is kind of bugging me. His eyes are still on me as he continues "There is nothing going on between us,'' he shakes his head immediately, almost like he read my mind. "I needed her. She was the only one that could help me find you." 

Needed her?

That makes it sound even worse. 

I don't want him to ever need her. 

"You didn't tell me then, so why are you telling me now. Something else must have happened." I point out because there has to be more to this story that I really don't want to listen to. 

"I've been in contact with her all through this trip. She was the only one that could help me with Blue and the coven drama. She is a witch." 

A witch? 

"Oh.'' 

I don't even know how to respond to all that he is telling me. It stings so much but I have to take into consideration that he is being honest with me and that is all I ask for in this relationship. He is doing all the right things but why does it feel so wrong right now. 

Why is this jealousy seeping out of me so badly? 

"Do you still feel anything for her?'' I ask the only question that is important to me. Even if it is just an inkling of emotion. It will kill me and eat me up into pieces. 

I don't want to hear it if he does. 

"I don't. Amber is not someone that I could even think about. I needed her and the only thing I feel is guilt because I used her to get what I want and it feels like she isn't completely over m,'' he confesses. 

Amber? So that is the name of the other real thing in my mates' life. 

Fuck. 

She is not over him. 

She still loves him but he doesn't love her. He cannot love her because he loves me and I am the only one that matters to him. He pulled her back into his life and it is all my fault. I am the reason why he felt the need to call her, to bring her back into his life. 

"So, is this thing over? Are you done needing her?'' I ask him. All he needs to do is just stop communicating with her. There is no point in bringing that kind of drama into our lives. 

"Yes. I just needed to let you know. I don't want to ever hide anything from you." 

I smile. I reach for him and grab his hands in mine slowly "It's okay. As long as she stays in the past. It doesn't matter,'' that is the honest truth. 

I don't care about AMBER. 

"There is more,'' he blurts out. 

I raise a brow. 

Okay.