The Werewolf's Vampire Mate - Chapter 632 - The Conversation

Chapter 632 – The Conversation

Darrien

So, that happened.

I don't even know what that was.

It just happened and I liked it so much. Jabi didn't seem to mind wither but now, he is really quiet. I don't know if I overstepped. I need to make sure.

I help him off the table and his eyes never leave mine. I clean him up with my inner shirt. I clean the surroundings because we made a mess. He is very quiet but that is not unusual. Jabi is usually quiet after sex. So I might just be thinking too much about what happened and be in my head.

"Are you hungry?'' I ask him, leaning closer to him and brushing a strand of his hair out of his face. He grabs my hand and for a second, we stare at each other in the darkroom. His eyes suck me in like they usually do.

His whole orbit completely surrounds me.

"There should be food at the party,'' he reminds me with a smile.

I lean even closer until my lips press to his for a soft kiss. He welcomes me wholeheartedly as we embrace. The sounds of his friends still echo through the window but I completely zone them out. At first, it was fun, doing what we did with them just in the background, oblivious to the magic we were making.

"Come on,'' I help him into his clothes and he does the same for me. Once we are both dressed. I grab my dirty shirt and we walk out of the room. We get to the parking lot and he hands me the keys. Jabi is not a fan of driving and it took a lot for me to teach him how to. He hates it so much but he has grown so much that whenever he feels responsible for something, he follows through on it.

That is the man I love.

He is so much stronger than he was when I met him. He can stand on his own now. He doesn't need me anymore. He just loves me.

"That was crazy,'' he speaks up finally as I drive out of the parking lot and to the main road. I turn to him slightly and nod in agreement.

"But it was fun,'' he adds with a goofy smile on his face. His cheeks are red. He totally enjoyed it and suddenly, I don't have anything to worry about.

"Yeah, it was,''

He grabs my free hand in his and squeezes it tightly. His warmth soothes me completely "What if we made a baby today? It felt different."

I stiffen at his words because I don't want him putting those thoughts in my head. I don't want to get excited about this when I know that there is just a fifty percent chance that it could happen. It has been a year, I mean a year since Alby mentioned that it would happen to us. He didn't give us a timeline. He didn't even give us any more information but then a screening was done to Jabi. He was tested by the healers and it was confirmed.

A year ago.

I didn't want to think too much about it because deep down, I know that Jabi is really not ready. He said he was indifferent about it. It didn't matter to him, as long as he had me. If it was meant to be, it would happen and I just completely let it go when nothing happened.

He never really even talked about it. I mean, what is there to talk about? According to Alby, when it happened, we would know. At some point, I started to think that it was because he was not ready, that is why it hadn't happened but then, now he says something like this.

This is the first time he has brought it up in a year.

The first time he is actually acknowledging it.

"We have amazing sex all the time, there wasn't anything different about this time.''

  "I know, I am just saying it felt a lot more intense, maybe it was the same to you but it was different this time for me,'' he shrugs.

"Do you even want a baby?'' I ask him because now that he has brought it up. I can't stop fucking thinking about it.

I want a baby with him.

I want a baby with him so badly.

"What does that mean?'' he furrows his brows in confusion. Almost like he can't imagine I would ask him that.

"Yeah, would you be happy if you were pregnant? Is that something you have thought about?''

"I don't know. Yes, I think so."

I raise a brow.

We are finally talking about it.

"You think so?''

He nods "I love you, I want to experience everything with you. I want us to be a real family."

"We are a real family now."

He nods "I know, I just meant…shit, I am messing things up right now aren't I?'' he looks at me. He wants me to finish his words for him but I need him to tell me what he wants. I don't want to help him make a decision.

"You have to tell me what you want. This is not about me. This is not about what I want. If you were pregnant right now, how would you feel?''

He is hesitant and I watch him as he parts his lips to say something but it closes just as fast as it opens. I wait for him, trying to focus on the road. This is a serious conversation, one that is a year too late but I am glad that we are having it. Jabi might have grown a lot over the years but he is still eighteen in human years.

He might not be ready.

"I want that.''

My eyes shoot up to his face at his words and for the first time, he is sincere about this topic. He wants this but he is scared.. He is scared and I can sense that.