The Werewolf's Vampire Mate - Chapter 648 - Gratitude

Chapter 648 – Gratitude

Alanis 

"We didn't mean to hurt anyone, please let us go,'' the wife screams as blood gushes out of her husband's neck. 

I didn't have any intentions of killing him but right now, at this moment. There is only pain in his eyes. No fucking remorse. 

He doesn't think he has done anything wrong and that is what is irking me so much right now. 

I don't want to kill him. 

I feel like I have to. 

"Please. Please don't kill him.'' her voice is desperate. She is not the problem. She is just in love with the problem and if I kill him, I will be killing someone that she loves. 

I would be hurting her when this is not her fault. 

The only person that could talk me out of anything is Beau and he is not here right now because I locked him out of my head. I did that because I didn't want anyone to talk me out of my anger. 

It is fucking validated. 

I have every right to feel this way. 

I have every right to want to kill him. 

"Please Alanis,'' she calls me by my name and that catches me off guard. I remember meeting them. I remember seeing them in the twins' school but I don't even remember their names. 

"How do you know my name?'' I ask her as her husband moves away from me. there is blood all over his shirt. He is crying out in pain but he is not my focus right now. 

"I know you. My son is a fan of yours. He can't stop talking about him. of course, I know you,'' she manages a faint smile "I don't have any problem with them being friends. I didn't know that my husband did this. I would have never let it happen and I am sorry,'' she manages. 

When I came Into the room, she acted like she didn't know me but all along, she did. 

"I understand how you feel. I understand why you are angry but please don't use violence to try to quench that anger. Don't be like him, don't let this be what defines you." 

I know she is just trying to talk me out of it. she is scared for her life—and I mean that literally. 

I just literally bit her husband and he is bleeding on their bed. 

In her eyes, I am a monster and she is just trying to talk me out of this but she is not wrong. 

I don't want this to get the best of me, I have a beautiful family. 

I am not a monster like they said. I don't want to prove them right. 

No. 

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I open my eyes and Beau is holding unto me. quickly, I look out the window and the sky is still dark. 

Somehow, this soothes me. 

Nighttime. 

I don't want tomorrow to come because I don't know if I can stop thinking about what I did. I don't know if I can forgive myself for getting so angry. you know when you convince yourself that you are doing the right thing. At that moment, it seems like such a good idea, until you have finally done it. 

That is how I feel. 

The aftermath of my decision.

I had to wipe their memories. I had to make them forget the encounter. I had to heal them. 

They would never remember but I would. 

I would remember how I stooped so low and hurt people. I hurt them because of my anger. 

"Hey, you, okay?'' 

I turn and Beau is looking at me with concern etched on his face. 

Am I okay?

I don't know. 

"She knew who I was,'' I mutter so quietly that he pulls away from me slowly and sits up so that he can hear me clearly. 

"Who?'' 

"Thelma, Max's mother.'' 

He manages a smile but I can see the confusion in his eyes. He doesn't know how to react to this moment. He doesn't know what I am talking about. 

"She said Max adored Colm. She said he said they were going to be friends for a long time." 

He watches me, slowly reaching for my hand and taking in his "I went there with not thoughts. I just wanted to cause them as much pain as they did my baby but she didn't even know what her husband did. She didn't want the same things he did.'' 

I take a deep breath as tears start to fall out of my eyes. I need to erase the last couple of hours of my life. 

I need to forget about the anger that I felt. 

I need to remember that because there are people that will never accept us, doesn't mean that there aren't people that will. 

There will be a million and more people like Max's father but there will also be people like Thelma.

"I made a mistake. I know that I want to be better.'' 

I might have lived for a long time but I learn every day. I make mistakes just like humans do. I feel pain, fear, and insecurities. 

I am learning and I want to grow as a person. I want to be someone that my kids can be proud of. 

I will be that person. 

"You know if you hadn't gone there. I just might and I might not have had the restraint that you did. I might not have been strong enough to control myself. So, thank you Lanis baby, for doing that for us. Thank you for being the balance I need in my life.'' He kisses my knuckles softly and I close my eyes. his words are tugging at my heartstring. 

His words are everything. 

"Thank you for being the incredible person that I fell in love with all those years. Thank you for loving those children so much that you would fight for their happiness." 

They might just be words but I feel them all in my core. 

They resonate inside me and for the first time tonight, I smile and it is a genuine one.