Will of chaos - Chapter 1960: Cap 1956: Gift from Callidora...
Chapter 1960: Cap 1956: Gift from Callidora…
Author: corrected again.
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Did you do this?” (me)
“No, you did it yourself.” (Paradox)
“But I must say that man was wise; many don’t understand what he explained to you.” (Paradox)
“The Priest was a good man with a big heart.” (me)
“Just like you, just look at what you accomplished by living by honoring his words.” (Paradox)
“Yes… I did, didn’t I…?” (me)
“…” (me)
I was surprised. I didn’t remember when I started dreaming about this memory. I didn’t understand if it was caused by the memories of that time when those illusions had awakened or if this was just another one of those illusions. The only certainty I had was that Paradox helped me awaken.
“What do you want?” (me)
“I want you to wake up and do something for me.” (Paradox)
“What do you need?” (me)
“Find that bird, I need your fire.” (Paradox)
“Are you…?” (me)
“Do you really want to know?” (Paradox)
“…” (me)
I turn my face to the image of that memory, just a teenager with her insecurities and a good man guiding her to the right path.
“Strange, I was so innocent back then, I thought that pain was the worst and I had time to care if I would be abandoned again.” (me)
Nowadays, my understanding of pain has become very deep. I also no longer care about those families who abandoned me, and even less about my mother in that world.
There was no reason to waste my time on it. I’m constantly fighting. I have a mother and sisters who care about me, I have enough children and wives to have a large family. All of this was more than enough reason not to think about those moments that I now see as ridiculous.
The memory shatters, and once again I was at the top of that pyramid with Paradox sitting in front of me, still covering herself.
But now I see her with different eyes, suddenly realizing I was never truly alone, she was there, even though I couldn’t see her, even though I didn’t do anything to help myself, she was still there.
“You know everything about me, don’t you?” (me)
“Yes, I’ve known about you since the emergence of your Existential Spark.” (Paradox)
“Were you with me when I was born?” (me)
“Yes and no…” (Paradox)
“What do you mean?” (me)
“I was asleep, in other words, my consciousness didn’t know about you until the moment I began to awaken, so I internalized everything about you that had accumulated.” (Paradox)
“So you know about my mother?” (me)
“In which life? You’ve had more than 17 lives before this one.” (Paradox)
“All that?” (me)
“That’s young for a Soul. A mature Soul would live hundreds of lives, and the oldest ones have lived millions of lives.” (Paradox)
“Your Soul has always been young and unique, my Holder.” (Paradox)
“So the other Holders…” (me)
“Chaos can be an infinity of things, but it is not certain. All previous Holders of Chaos are not only dead, but their Souls and Existential Sparks were destroyed.” (Paradox)
“I don’t choose the Holder. Before you appeared, I spent my time dormant, not noticing the passage of time.” (Paradox)
“But not now. You already have some idea. You’ve been gathering things since you first appeared.” (me)
I wanted to know what she was hiding. Since my last meeting with her, I’ve been thinking about everything that’s gone dark so far, but the more I listen, the more I realize that these are just half-truths, there are so many holes in what she told me.
“Zenos, I’m still asleep. My body and Soul are in a dual state, between existence and nonexistence.” (Paradox)
“I need a new body as well as a new Soul. My existence must come into being along with you, striking me as your Avatar.” (Paradox)
“Why would I do that!?” (Me)
“You can choose to act differently, but you’ll continue to carry me as a Holder.” (Paradox)
“It seems our time together is over…” (Paradox)
Suddenly, I felt something. My entire body was heating up. I could feel my body again, my mind became clearer. That’s when I realized that energy was still swirling inside me.
The next thing I know, two pairs of arms wrap around me. I wake up in a bed. Around me was a vast amount of Divine Law imprinted on reality itself. That’s how I recognize I’m in the Temple of Urd.
Looking around, I realize it’s a different room. On each side of the bed was one of the twins, their two leaders filling the entire space while their hands each grip an arm, helping me sit up.
“For how long… I…?” (Me)
“A few hours, how are you feeling?” (Lena)
“We can discuss it next time. Right now, you should end your fusion with the Divine Beasts.” (Cortana)
As they helped me sit up, my mind was already beginning to understand the situation. I could feel my Familiars inside me, each of them unconscious except Hinata.
I tried to touch their minds and realized that, like me, they too were trapped in memories. As soon as I touched their minds so directly, they began to wake up on their own.
But when I looked at Hinata, she was already separated from me. In fact, she was floating next to my Soul in a fetal position, clutching something with her entire body. When I looked at her, I was greeted by her showing me a strange fetus filled with the Concept of Madness.
When I saw that, I looked at the seal where the energy should have been refined and realized that only half of it was there. Looking at it, I realized something was missing: the Ghostly energy, as well as the power of Chaos.
“That was just energy; she took everything else…” (me)
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2 hours later.
I was sitting cross-legged, rethinking everything, what I want to do, and rethinking whether or not I should do all this.
I had already separated from my Familiars and was still too weak. It seems my Soul suffered the most from the Refining of that energy, but since Hinata took that fetus, I realized I’m not taking any more damage.
I was alone now, not inside the Temple of Urd, but on the balcony of the Star Palace within Tarzor, where Freya’s World Tree is located.
I spent over an hour talking to the Twins about my plans. Lena and Cortana, surprisingly, agreed
with my plans while explaining the possible consequences. In the end, they both demanded to participate and are currently helping to reconstruct the ritual Freya was creating for me.
“What do you think? I know you heard everything.” (Me)
“I’m scared. What you’re thinking of doing isn’t exactly unprecedented…” (Freya)
“My mother told me how many Gods have done this before. The Demon God of Sin even impregnated himself. There were also Goddesses who generated offspring using the seed of thousands of men. There were even Dragons who used multiple partners to produce a single heir.” (Freya)
“I can imagine the Entities must have gone much further than that, but what you’re doing is different. I want this, don’t get me wrong, but I’m still afraid of the outcome…” (Freya)
Freya didn’t show herself to me, but her words reached me as if she were right next to me. I could feel the apprehension and anxiety in her voice. I could understand that. Even for me, this was a serious matter, so I planned to ask for help from experts like the Twins. Fortunately, they were willing to help on their own and didn’t try to stop me.
“I want our child to be a representation of our love, a symbol that represents how they are all equally special to me.” (me)
“I know I’m selfish, I also know I’m hypocritical, and yet I don’t care. I want this. I even feel a little envious of this child having so many mothers before he’s even born…” (me)
“Are you going to add Alice?” (Freya)
“No, she doesn’t really love me, she just admires and adores me. I know she’s slowly realizing this on her own.” (Me)
“You’re wrong, she’s just confused about what she’s feeling for you, but she felt love from the first moment you reached out to her.” (Freya)
“I’ll think about it, nothing will be done now anyway…” (Me)
I needed to prepare for my firstborn, someone born from all my wives, someone who would be my offspring and not just someone transformed by me, a truly new life.
But now problems were starting to arise. Freya talking about Alice was just another one of those problems. My other wives still don’t know about my plans, and I need to talk to them. I might also end up needing more Eggs or something similar, not to mention a deeper study of the ritual I stole from Hatred.
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1 hour later.
I was still sitting in the Star Palace, thinking about my future son and my wives, when she arrived. I realized as soon as she approached that it was Callidora, still possessing Niryna’s body. At her waist was the same book I saw with the Avatar of Hatred, as well as another artifact that looked more like a bizarre finger.
“I’ve given you plenty of time to recover, but I see it still hasn’t been enough.” (Callidora)
“You really don’t care about my warnings. I didn’t even come looking for you, and you still come here?” (Me)
“I came bearing gifts, and this is how you treat me~… so cruel~~…” (Callidora)
