Chapter 678 - 1181 Feeling Missed Hundreds of Millions

Outside the Room, Chi Feichei waited for a long time, and when he realized there was no Movement Inside the Room, he Turn Around to the Entrance to Look at the Situation, only to See Haibara Ai sitting on the Bedside, Lower Head staring blankly at her Bag, "Ai?"

Haibara Ai snapped back to reality and Subconsciously Looked up.

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It was like this Last Time when Godmother left.

Moreover, this Time the Getting Along Time was a little longer, and that Feeling was even stronger...

Chi Feichei Observed Haibara Ai's Grievance Face and was Silent for a Moment, "Do you miss Mother?"

Haibara Ai then Realized that she might have forgotten to manage her Expression, and didn't really want to admit that she would actually 'miss Mother', but thinking that the person in front of her was Chi Feichei, she gave a muffled 'Uh-huh'.

Brother Hichiji should understand her...

The next second, Haibara Ai glanced at the Mobile Phone Chi Feichei took out and Asked Speechless, "What are you doing?"

Chi Feichei Looked at Haibara Ai's Expression in the Mobile Phone, which had Recovered to her usual state, and regretfully put away his Mobile Phone, "Your Expression Just Now was rare, it's a Pity."

He was a little too Slow to press the photo button, all Because he helped Haibara Ai carry her Schoolbag, which Impacted his performance and prevented him from taking a photo to add to his Collection.

Haibara Ai was Speechless for a moment, Lower Head and pulled up the Zipper of the Bag containing her Clothes, Get Up, put it on her back, and Looked at Chi Feichei with a dark Face, "Let's go."

She was regretting that Brother Hichiji should understand her Feeling, and they could huddle together for Heating, but she never Expected that what Brother Hichiji thought of was to take a photo of her so Lose Face...

There was no worse Older Brother than this!

Chi Feichei Turn Around and led the way Go Out, without any Guilt for destroying the Atmosphere, and was still regretting not being able to take that Photo.

That pitiful version of Haibara Ai's Photo, Miss this Time, and with her Little Sister on Guarding Against, there might not be another Opportunity next Time...

Feeling Missed Hundreds of Millions.

All the way to the Parking Lot, Haibara Ai put the Bag in the Back Seat, Get On The Bus, and Looked at Chi Feichei sitting in the Driver's Seat, "Wouldn't you consider this passing on Experience?"

On the way down the Elevator, she had thought about Why.

Before meeting Chi Kana, she hadn't Realized that she could miss someone so much, and feel lost as soon as The Other Party left.

Her Young lady was Probably Because they were separated more than they were together, and occasional gatherings were Just to quickly share Life, or Maybe she had always been the one leaving.

Doctor Agasa, as a Male, was not as delicate as Chi Kana in some ways, and was always there. She had not Experienced Doctor Agasa suddenly leaving and not knowing when he would return, so she had not thought about Doctor Agasa.

Hassashi... When she Initially met him and went to Doctor Agasa's Place, she had missed him, and also when she kept calling the Place her Young lady rented, but as she Contacted him, she Found that Hassashi was often active Beside her. If she wanted to See him today, she could send a News and make an Promise to meet, and they didn't live far away, so slowly, she wouldn't miss him too much when they were apart.

Looking at it this way, there were two Reasons Why Chi Kana made her Mood Depressed every Time she left.

One was that at Godmother's Place, she Felt wholehearted care and Concern, and even Just a brief Loss made People Uncomfortable and lost, and her Godmother Seemingly had a kind of Magic Power, and could radiate Warmth no Matter where she was. It wasn't a burning Enthusiasm, but it could conquer People's Hearts Subconsciously, and being loved by such a person made her Heart warm every Day. When that person suddenly left, the Descend in Air Temperature also made People at a Loss.

The second Reason was that in 'Gathering and Separation', she had no Sovereignty at all.

Whether it was with her Young lady in the past, or with Doctor and Brother Hassashi now, she could have the Right to choose, while Chi Kana would fly from City to City, the roads were too far apart and couldn't be determined, and Chi Kana also had Matters to do, so Time was also full of Uncertainty.

She had no Sovereignty at all, which meant that she was destined to be the one who missed her more.

So, did Brother Hassashi really not understand her Mood?

No, in this Matter, Brother Hassashi's Feeling should be more profound than hers.

She should be the one who could only feel a Portion but not fully Experience it.

She heard Godmother Say that Before she was five years old, Brother Hassashi had been living with his Parents, which was five years of Time. Even if the Baby Time in the first two years had no Memory, there were at least two or three years, which was many Times the Week she spent with Godmother this Time, so the missing after Godmother left should also be doubled, doubled and doubled again.

Her real Age was eighteen years old, not a Child anymore. She had Seen many Matters and Experienced a lot in the Organization these years, and she was open to Gathering and Separation, but Brother Hassashi that year was, after all, a five-year-old Child.

The departure of his Parents, facing the House alone where Seemingly there were still Figures/Silhouettes of his Parents everywhere, but the Air was Cold, passively waiting, that kind of missing... No, that should be Pain, and that Pain should be many Times stronger.

In addition, after being stirred up by Chi Feichei, she walked out of her Depressed Mood, and thinking about it, it didn't Seemingly make her feel so Uncomfortable anymore. Back then, Seemingly no one helped Brother Hassashi out of this Emotion.

Thinking of this, her Heart felt so suffocated that she was about to suffocate. There were many Questions she wanted to Ask, but Seemingly she didn't need to Ask, and she could think of the Answer.

For Example...

When he was missing them back then, when he Realized that he had no Sovereignty at all, was he Afraid? Was he Unease?

Definitely, she was fine, she had the Mind of an eighteen-year-old, and knew more. If she really wanted to be willful, she could Call Doctor Agasa and fly over, or hire someone to take her on an Airplane to find Godmother.

Correct, she knew it was Just an Airplane Matter, and knew many ways to deal with it. She had not completely lost her Sovereignty, but a five-year-old Child, the Outside World had even more Unknown, not only was his Body unable to compete with some Danger, but even his Knowledge of the World and his Method of dealing with Matters were still in an absolutely weak Position.

Brother Hassashi had even less Choice than her back then, absolute helplessness and Frustration, and what followed must be Fear and Unease.

Desperate?

There should be, the long-term Expectation was not satisfied, the long-term Fear and Unease were not Appeased, and if even pleading and begging were fruitless, it must be Desperate.

Had he resisted?

Even if a five-year-old Child couldn't Say where it was unfair, once he didn't get what he Asked for, he would definitely Sense it, Sense that he was the weak Party with absolutely no Right to choose, and he would resist.

She could even Guess one or two of the Means of Resistance. For a five-year-old Child, it was Probably crying, making trouble, and making mistakes, using the most clumsy and irrational Method to deal with it.

Hatred?

There must be.

Loss was a painful Matter, and if Gentleness or Sense of security would aggravate that Pain, then Gentleness and Sense of security would also be hated, along with the Mother who had once given Gentleness and the Father who had once given Sense of security.

Actually, there were still Questions she didn't know the Answer to.

What was the Situation after the Resistance was ineffective?

What about now? Can he let it go now?

She didn't dare to Ask.

She was Worried that the Emotions of the past had become a festering Wound, and in Loss of Control, it would wantonly pollute other Places in her Inner Self. After dissecting it, what she would See was a scene of devastation that she couldn't bear.

Although Jack the Ripper in the Cocoon Game was a Game Character, he was outstanding in terms of Settings and intelligence.

Such a Villain actually treated Brother Hassashi, whom he had known for a short Time, as a Friend, and even played out a collapsing Plot of 'Killing Professor Moriarty'.

She didn't think much about it before, and Felt that Brother Hassashi was Just Easy to Warm Others, or that Sawada Hiroki Guessed before his Death that Brother Hassashi, this Gamer, would definitely participate in the Cocoon Game Experience, and set up an 'Absolute Charm' Buff for Brother Hassashi in Advance.

Thinking about it now, Maybe it was Because Jack the Ripper and Brother Hassashi had talked about some Aspects, and Jack regarded Brother Hassashi as a Friend who could understand him, or even another Onself.

In the London Stage Settings of that Game, Jack killed his Mother who abandoned him, and the other victims were also selected as Goals Based on Jack's Resentment towards his Mother.

So, what about Brother Hassashi?

If it wasn't Resentment to the Point of wanting to Murder, he Probably wouldn't be able to understand Jack, and if he didn't really understand, that kind of Executioner wouldn't be so Easy to be deceived.

...It's terrifying to think about it.

She didn't want to think that way, but if it was the Same as what she thought, then it would be Better to dilute that kind of Resentment first, and then dissect and Treatment it.

Moreover, not everyone was Suitable for dissecting the Wound and removing the pus. Brother Hassashi's Medical Record was still left in Aoyama Fourth Hospital.

Furthermore, if Brother Hassashi was unwilling to reveal it, she wouldn't have no Opportunity...

...

Chi Feichei closed the Car Door, Turn Head and Saw Haibara Ai Staring at him with a Complex Gaze, and Felt inexplicable, "What?"

Haibara Ai snapped back to reality and Said in a Leisurely Tone, "The Experience of how to quickly Adjust your Mood when facing the departure of your Old Mom is to use other Matters to divert your Attention and quickly get out of that Emotion?"

Chi Feichei started the Car and backed out of the Parking Space, "You can Try it."

Was this an admission?

Haibara Ai Looked at Chi Feichei's Calm Profile, withdrew her Line of Sight, Looked at the Car driving out of the Parking Lot, and Decided to have a Heart-to-Heart with Chi Feichei, "Brother Hassashi, have I Said it? My Parents passed away when I was very young. In the past, when I Saw Children crying on TV Program Because they missed their Parents, I thought, at least they still have Parents, at least they still have Concern. Aren't they much luckier than People like me? Now I Probably know the Mood of those Children..."

Chi Feichei Suspected that his Little Sister's Emotion was extremely Depressed today. He knew all this. In his Previous Life, his Parents left early, and he didn't understand the Mood of those Children, but in this Life, with the Memory of the Original Consciousness, he could also understand it, and Felt it was necessary to talk about it, "There is a Proverb in China, 'When Parents are alive, there is still a Place to come from in Life; when Parents are gone, there is only the way back in Life'. No Matter how old you are, after losing your Parents, a Portion of People's Inner Self will always be missing, and they will be more lonely, and their Confidence will Seemingly not be so Sufficient. And the American Poet Emily Dickinson Said, 'I could bear the Darkness, had I not Seen the Light, but Sunshine puts Desolation in the most remote recess', sometimes, having it and then losing it is not Easier than not having it..."

Haibara Ai: "..."

This...

She actually wanted to express to Brother Hassashi - there are still many People who envy People who have Parents, so it's not that bad, everyone is envious of each other.

But Brother Hassashi Seemingly understands it Better than her.

Moreover, these two sentences are so good, she likes them very much...

Chi Feichei continued, "Neither Emotion is pretentious. Only the People in it can Experience it clearly, know the Pain in it, and at the Same Time yearn for another Life, but the Beauty of another Life is entirely a Fantasy, and the Pain is ignored instead."

Haibara Ai: "..."

Correct, very Reasonable, making People want to think deeply.

(End of Chapter)