Chapter 1508 - 1549: Madness

"Clover..." Master May spoke with some difficulty, "I’m not Feng, I’m Theodora." How much he hoped she would take a good look at him, see clearly who was truly in front of her.

But the next moment, Lady Li suddenly lifted her head. The joy on her face had already turned into painful despair, "I know, you just never wanted to recognize this daughter, right? You always thought this child wasn’t yours, and now that the child is dead, that’s the best thing for you, isn’t it!"

Master May knew the person before him had once again fallen into those painful memories, as if she was experiencing the agony anew. He wanted to help her but didn’t know how.

"Feng, you never truly trusted me, did you?" She looked at him, speaking slowly, her gentle face holding an indescribable refusal.

Master May felt a sharp pain in his heart. Back then, did she also, in front of that Feng, use such a resolute expression, saying such words? "Clover, if it were me, no matter what happens, I would trust you!"

But she seemed not to hear him, immersed solely in her own consciousness at this moment.

"Since you don’t believe, then no amount of explanation is useful, hahaha... If only I had never loved you all my life... hahaha... It wasn’t meant to love, it wasn’t meant to love, I was too foolish, too stupid..."

"Clover, don’t say anymore, don’t laugh anymore," Master May said.

Lady Li suddenly changed her expression once again, pressing her fingers onto Master May’s face, her nails sinking into his skin.

"Who are you? Do you love me?"

"I am Theodora May, and in this life, you are the only one I love." He clearly faced a madwoman; knowing once her madness passed, she wouldn’t remember any of this, he still replied sincerely.

"But I don’t love you." Lady Li laughed in a desolate way, "I don’t know any Theodora May, I don’t want to love anyone anymore, Feng, I want you to regret for a lifetime, hahaha... a lifetime, when we reach the underworld, we shall never meet again..."

Lady Li, laughing and crying, fainted, Master May caught her body, gazing at the tear marks on her face.

Every time her madness appeared, she always seemed like that twenty-something-year-old he had found her at, her demeanor, her tone... For her, during these episodes of madness, her time was stagnant as well, living constantly in those days. All her emotions, all her love and hatred were still back in thirty years ago.

Master May carried Lady Li to the bed, carefully wiped the tears from her face, and then covered her with a blanket.

Tonight, she cried twice. Originally hosting a banquet just to make her happy, but it ended up adding to her tears instead.

Over all these years, he had found many famous doctors to look at her madness, but they all concluded that her madness was solely because her heart couldn’t let go of that one person.

Because that knot in her heart remained unresolved, she went mad. To put it simply, it was a form of self-escape, compressing all her painful memories into those episodes of madness, and during normal times, she wouldn’t remember these things that brought her pain.