Chapter 129: Advancing While Lost (1)

If that guy is a no-good senpai, I am a no-good no-good reincarnator.

The day after the Mirror Monster Villain fight.

At lunch break I let out a sigh while putting half my body out the hallway window.

Honestly I had not imagined at all that it would become this kind of thing.

...But thinking about it it is natural.

A girl who aspires to be a champion of justice cannot possibly have no burden purifying and vanishing someone who might be saveable.

Until now she had been convinced that if they become a Monster Villain there is no choice but to defeat them. I think she was also convinced that an existence named Atel Octo is an exception.

But as a result of making Gahel into a Vigilante she learned that in theory anyone can become a Vigilante.

Monster Villains she has defeated until now, and Monster Villains she will probably defeat from now on, she ended up thinking maybe they can be saved.

If with this she could have shouted like a protagonist from an older generation I do not want to fight humans and fled there would have been no problem. Playing the tragic heroine and making a fuss gyaa-gyaa she might have been satisfied.

But that guy knows what kind of damage a left Monster Villain brings, and has a sense of justice that thinks she cannot allow that. The option of not fighting does not exist for Reiko from the point she obtained power.

Therefore she cannot cause damage around her from her own selfishness and swings her fist. Slowly, slowly, she accumulates dregs in her heart.

"...It does not go as I want."

Defeat the enemy, save allies and high end! It does not become that kind of simple thing.

If you succeed another problem appears because you succeeded so I get sick of it.

Of course current Sacred compared to the original have quite stable mental and I think they have become happy.

Compared to the original of piling defeat on defeat, having stones thrown by heartless people, being showered in jeers, being violated by Alter and Monster Villains and the people they thought they would protect, I even end up thinking this degree of suffering is error.

But the only one who can think that, who can rejoice at that, is me who has comparison-target memories. For the Sacred now is official history, and the memories of defeat existing in my memory are only a vicious dream.

Therefore I could not possibly say compared to the original you are happy so do not worry about that kind of thing.

Then when I think whether current me can do something about this situation I can only say it is difficult. As long as the human named me is not a champion of justice who can offer his life for an unspecified large number of someones, I cannot draw close to a champion of justice’s worries.

As long as there is even a fragment of thinking like worrying about a whatever thing, that guy, I am out of the question as a consultation role.

"Ara? What is it, Senjumaru."

"N... Grace huh."

There is nothing surprising about Grace being in the second-year hallway.

After the meal party about a month ago, one way or another Grace had blended with everyone. Niekawa of course, and even the Chairman bunch.

While a bit put off by the royal guard bunch’s vibe, it seems it transmits that these guys seriously love Leas, and after that day too they talk about this and that from the past and make Leas’s face bright red. The Chairman bunch of course connections are being made even with bunch Leas does not usually get involved with, Lott-san also panics that way.

I understood the feeling of relying on Leas. Just from Grace putting out a bit of seriousness and starting to adjust this and that, people started gathering around Leas who had been spending almost all alone.

In the original in a vibe of I have a good idea she pulls huge blunders, so actually I was quite wary... She is amazingly excellent, far more than the likes of me. She firmly finishes what comrades need.

When I think that kind of thing my mood inevitably sinks.

A reincarnator who holds game knowledge. Looking only at the letters it seems like you can make full use of game knowledge and do it well.

I understood it, but in the end I am an ordinary person. Before reincarnation and now.

There is no logic I can win against a guy who was normally excellent in the original, I am simply losing in raw ability.

I thought Leas looked lonely all alone, and I even acted for that, yet I cannot catch up at all to the result the girl named Grace Wayne put out.

"...At that time I was saved. I will listen to worries or complaints."

"!? A, aa, I see."

For an instant I thought I was found out as Atel Octo, but this is when I brought her into Reiko’s room.

Even though I properly understand and think so as not to be found out. Sometimes I seriously panic that I was found out as Atel Octo.

That too is proof I am not the type strong at brain battles and that kind of thing.

I am an ordinary person no matter how far I go, and on top of that a trash with only strong sexual desire.

I get sick of myself.

Stupid and weak, even though I cannot handle the knowledge I luckily have well. A trash bastard who perfectly reacts to disgraceful states in Monster Villain fights.

When I think that is me, when I see Leas fighting seriously for someone, Sacred Saber’s figure, sometimes I feel guilty and want to die.

"Just talking to someone lightens the mood. That said if you absolutely cannot talk I will not force you."

"It is not anything. Just. I thought I cannot do it like you..."

Even if moth-eaten I obtained game knowledge, if a guy who can properly make use of it made use of it he should be able to do it better, yet I wasted various things, and even now I cannot properly help Leas and Reiko.

If someone else received this knowledge, this previous life. They would have been able to help the Sacred more.

And yet reality is this.

A previous life that only played games for ero purposes, and a current head that is not that smart. The three-legged race they spin is warped, and I do not feel we are properly advancing forward.

Why did the likes of me obtain this knowledge.

If a guy who can do it better made better use of this knowledge it would be good.

Then they would not expose disgrace like me.

"Snap to it!"

Biri-biri.

A dignified voice rang through the hallway.

The mud-like stagnant sticky thinking I had been thinking until just now blows away.

"Listen? That that girl became able to exchange with someone that way is because you got close before I came. Furezawa Senjumaru, because you touched that girl."

Zui, distance is closed, I involuntarily step back, and am driven into the wall.

For a wall-don Grace’s height is small, but from bearing and eye power I get scared as if height difference does not matter.

"I heard about first-year Leas from the Chairmen. If she were still that stubborn now things would not have gone this easily." ℯℯ𝘭.

"It, it is not particularly. Not only my achievement... right."

Frankly that area Reiko’s achievement is large.

As the same Sacred and in a junior position she talked this and that, and as a result Leas’s personality had rounded a bit at the April point. What did I do? When I think that I cannot possibly be proud.

"Yes, certainly it is not only your achievement. But what is wrong with that."

"Ha...? No, because..."

I had thought she would deny with there is no such thing, so being affirmed and then told what is wrong I involuntarily flinch.

I have previous-life knowledge and should be able to maneuver better than anyone else. And yet it is not going well this much.

Thinking that far, looking-down me involuntarily looked straight at Grace’s eyes.

This thinking. Is it not close to fallen Grace at that time?

"You properly moved, and as a result people gathered around that girl. I only used that. Stick out your chest, Senjumaru. You are moving for her more than you think."

What did she feel from the change in my expression. She gently loosens pupils narrowed as if intimidating.

"Was it not none other than you who said properly rely. Who is the someone who yelled at me who said I have to somehow manage with only my own power?"

There were no words to return.

The boomerang is extreme. The words I declared in that loud a voice I myself am not practicing at all.

"...If you have some worry consult whenever you like. If it is something hard to talk to me anyone else is fine. I do not know how your self-evaluation has become, but I am properly evaluating. Of course Leas and them too."

Saying only that Grace turned her back this way and started walking.

I understand I am worrying this and that, but she has no intention of forcibly drawing it out. That kind of thing.

Honestly it is very welcome. Because who can I talk my current state to? Who will help?

Whether Furezawa Senjumaru’s figure or Atel Octo’s figure, even if I suddenly say I saw this world as a game in a previous life to Leas and them they would only worry about my head. In Furezawa Senjumaru’s case I would not even be dealt with, and even in Atel Octo’s case I would only confuse them saying at last the bad influence of Monster Villainization or something.

Then.

The few other parties I can put out this topic.

"...Nezumi-san, huh."

Besides the Sacred series which is a transformation heroine humiliation game, a maker developing various eroge. Triangle Software.

A character who appears in the majority of those works, appearing as the item shop manager. A Magician Diabolic who understands my identity, everything.

Do I have no choice but to hear from her?

Hearing from her who understands my current state more than anyone. That is the first thing to think, I thought it first too.

But I was hesitating because I do not understand Nezumi-san’s intentions.

Toward someone who knows Atel Octo’s identity, even reincarnation and such, I did not have the courage to ask why do you know that kind of thing.

But having come this far it cannot be helped.

"...Put in spirit, me. Even if it is conceit, properly look forward."

My head is not that good, and I cannot possibly do something like simulating the future from now from game knowledge.