Chapter 225: What She Feared Most Was Her Gentleness

Chapter 225: Chapter 225: What She Feared Most Was Her Gentleness

The dream is ending?

Haruko, what are you saying! Ichiko anxiously reached out, wanting to tightly pull Haruko, but no matter how hard she tried, she could no longer touch the girl in the slightest.

The surrounding scenery shattered like glass, and fine cracks began to appear.

Haruko still stood in front of her, a faint smile on her face.

An extraordinary scene reflected in her eyes, Ichiko’s forward lunge stopped, her body slightly hunched as she lowered her head, a pair of eyes that seemed about to well up with tears hidden beneath her hair.

Ichiko understood, this was not reality, but a dream.

It was just that she had always refused to think in that direction, deceiving herself, even deceiving this dream world, so she could stay here forever.

Here was spring.

Unlike the cold and lonely winter days in reality.

Every time she went out and saw the pure white snow, Ichiko would think of the pure white carpet beside her bed at home.

More than half a month ago, that pure white carpet was dyed crimson by the girl’s blood.

Here was the lovely Haruko, and the person she always thought about, no matter her mood.

Ichiko wished even more that this was reality.

The other side of that pain, that must be the dream, right?

Tears, once again, fell uncontrollably from her cheeks onto the carriage floor.

That won’t do. Haruko’s helpless voice carried a hint of indulgence, she walked to Ichiko’s side, wanting to hold her shoulder and hug her.

But those hands ultimately passed through Ichiko’s body.

The girl looked up in surprise, meeting Haruko’s eyes.

Those scarlet pupils had scared her countless times in the dark.

But this time, Ichiko could only see gentleness in those magnificent eyes.

Haruko took another step back, looking at the girl affectionately. It seems Ichiko has forgotten our last promise.

Promise?

Ichiko stood stunned, unable to recall what promise Haruko had made with her at the end.

All she could remember was the scene of her collapsing in a pool of blood at the end.

At that time, she seemed to be saying something...

Ichiko suddenly inhaled, her pupils constricting for a moment.

Haruko noticed this change and smiled softly. It seems Ichiko has remembered. So, after I left, what has Ichiko been doing?

I...

Ichiko lowered her eyes. I didn’t do anything.

The beautiful memories in the dream had originally filled her, but this was ultimately just a dream.

The moment the dream was about to end, all the pain from reality surged back into her mind, pushing out those memories.

Ichiko lowered her head even further, not daring to meet Haruko’s eyes at all.

Inari, Shin, Yuna Ge, and many others who came from afar to help me, they are all doing something for you, Haruko.

But I am still avoiding it, not daring to face the reality that you have... already died, and I’m wasting my days at home, not even going out...

Even revenge, that was done by Yuna Ge.

Ichiko, someone like you!

What face do I, like this, have to see Haruko!

And what right!

To enjoy all the beautiful things in this dream!

Seeing Haruko all this time wasn’t to enjoy such beauty, but to be able to say sorry to her!

Large teardrops finally fell uncontrollably.

Hey Haruko, please don’t be so gentle with me, okay?

Come and blame me, curse me!

It’s all my fault, it’s all my fault, it’s all my fault, it’s all my fault, it’s all my fault. If it wasn’t for me, you wouldn’t have died. It wasn’t worth it for you to save someone like me!

Please Haruko... will you scold me?

Wuwuwu...

She had come to understand many things, but she had never forgotten her neglect of her.

She hadn’t forgotten the cold shoulder she gave her after their argument during the summer vacation.

She wanted such gentleness, yet she feared such gentleness.

Hit me, scold me, you can vent any emotion on me, just please don’t be so gentle with me, okay?

Such gentleness will only make me feel increasingly lonely in that real world.

Ichiko, you always like to think so much by yourself, and take all the responsibility onto yourself.

Like I said before, I never blamed you.

The words spoken beside her ear cleared Ichiko’s blurry vision considerably.

Haruko walked to the window and quietly looked outside. Ichiko, do you know, I hoped you would look at me, but I’m already dead, and I don’t want you to only focus on me. You can have your own life.

Study, work, try things you like, work hard to improve yourself. I’m already dead, so it’s meaningless to keep focusing on me.

Do you remember, our promise.

Haruko turned around, her beautiful hair gently swaying. In the final moments, I hoped you would... forget me.

At that time, I was already very happy.

I no longer dared to ask for too much.

I don’t want to keep affecting you after I die, I don’t want you to become painful because of me. After you left me, you should also have a happier and more fulfilling life.

Haruko said, revealing a happy smile. You feel guilty, regretful, and miss me for my departure... Although I’m very happy, still...

As for me, I still hope Ichiko can be happy every day!

The dream was breaking.

The glass of the carriage window shattered together, accompanied by some jarring sounds, the breeze blew, lifting Haruko’s hair.

A hint of a happy smile hung on her pretty face, it was so lovely.

But her body was also gradually becoming transparent.

Ichiko bit her lip, and at the same time, her hands clenched tighter and tighter.

Saying to forget you, and then live a happier and more joyful life.

You like this...

You who accompanied me for over ten years like this...

You who even in the last moment were saying you loved me like this...

How could I possibly truly forget you, Haruko!

Ichiko raised her arm and vigorously wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes. Haruko, please don’t think like that, okay? Aren’t you a yandere? Come and possess me! Lock me forever in this small dark room called ’Dream’!

I’m willing to stay here with you forever!

Aren’t you a yandere? Please... don’t become so normal...

By the end of her words, she powerlessly lowered her arms again.

She knew that such things could not be reversed.

How could someone who is already dead be resurrected?

Being able to have such a beautiful dream, being able to talk to Haruko, being able to tell her the’sorry’ in her heart, she should have been satisfied.

But she just wanted to be a little more greedy!

The girl in front of her was so close, yet so far away.

Haruko said softly. Ichiko, will you let go? If this continues, you will only suffer more.

Let go? Ichiko raised her eyes, her gaze suddenly becoming firm and fierce. Never!

I will hold your hand, and then...

Keep you!

Possess you!

Keep you by my side forever!

If... if there is a next life, and such an opportunity...

I definitely won’t let go again!

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