Chapter 329: The male omega’s insecurities

Seoha’s POV

My breath stutters as I pull my oversized shirt down.

Standing in front of the bathroom mirror and looking at my chest is my newest hobby and torture. My life is full of a million insecurities and this is a new addition.

I still have the soft swell that comes with male omega pregnancy, but there’s no milk. It has been two months and my babies have been feeding on baby milk instead of mine.

I sniffle and lean forward to wash off the tear streaks on my face.

It hurts.

These days too Taesan has been sneaking around. Yesterday afternoon he left the room to make a call in the hallway. Sneaking to make calls is not something my husband does.

I know he will never have eyes for anyone else, but I still worry.

A knock on the door startles me and I force my sad pout away.

"Baby?" Taesan’s voice calls and I go out of the bathroom to respond to him. "Yes?" I ask and my alpha’s sharp eyes scan me. His eyes search every part of my face and he frowns at the redness of my eyes.

"You’re crying" he says softly, hugging me and holding me like I’m precious to him.

"N-no" I stutter and he growls at the back of his throat, hugging me tighter and resting his chin on my head.

"You’re crying baby, and it’s not a question" he says and I shudder. I don’t want to cry for something that is no one’s fault but mine. Maybe I wasn’t made to have babies and I’m forcing it...

"Can you do me a favor?" Taesan asks and I lift my head to look at his face, wondering what my alpha wants to ask of me.

"Get dressed" he says and I blink.

"Are you sending me away?" I ask in a broken voice and he chuckles.

"Why would I send you away and lose my heart, baby?" he asks.

"But what’s going on?" I ask the question with worry in my tone and he kisses my head again, breaking the hug and moving away from me.

"Get dressed and see, I already picked out something for you" he gestures to the bed and Iook at it with round eyes. It’s a new unreleased Mountain Atelier design.

"Isn’t this...isn’t this supposed to be sold as the first design of the rebrand line?" I ask with a hand over my mouth.

I saw my alpha design this in the past two months. While I would sleep at night, he would alternate between rocking any of the twins that was fussy and adding new details to the design sketch.

"Wow..." I whisper.

I didn’t know he was already bringing the design to life.

"This is too much, Taesan-ah. I can’t wear this" I stutter, too stunned by the design. The fabric looks exotic under the lights and it’s really beautiful...too beautiful.

"Too much?" he asks, hugging me from behind and pressing his body against mine. His hands reach down to cup my stomach and I flinch.

I still have my postpartum belly and weight. I have been wearing oversized clothes out of shame. Taesan has always loved our size difference, I didn’t want to lose him by showing him how big I still am.

"Is anything I can do to match up to how much I owe you?" Taesan asks and I blink in confusion.

"I owe you, I stole from you" I remind him and he makes that deep noise again, sliding his hands up and down my sides like he used to do when I was pregnant.

"You chose me, you stayed with me, you love me and you...you gave me a family, baby. I’m the one who’s in a big debt" Taesan says, dipping his head to kiss me on the neck and my omega purrs at the gesture.

"Get dressed, I already got babysitters yesterday and I need to talk to them" he says and leaves the room.

When he shuts the door, I knock my head twice in embarrassment. I feel so silly about my previous panic.

"Seoha, you fool!" I whisper-yell to myself, giggling with the realization of what I misunderstood. Taesan was sneaking around to surprise me with this!

I wonder where we’re going.

I get dressed quickly and leave the room with the giddiness of a boy in love.

As I walk down the stairs, I hear Minjae’s voice talking over Taesan’s and my eyes widen. Taesan reached out to Minnie to help us? No way.

"You will pay for my time, C.E.O-ssi. I should be doing crime and terrorizing the city" Minjae says and Taesan shakes his head.

"What do you know about crimes?" my alpha asks and Minjae gasps.

"Are you looking down on me?" he asks and I laugh. Junho is sitting on the couch with Seojun on his lap. The little baby is making cute noises and watching his mama argue with my mate.

"Oh Minjae, you’re teaching your boy how to be mouthy, aren’t you?" I ask and Minjae turns his attention to me.

My best friend squeals at the sight of me. The house would have been more noisy if Sooin and Jisu weren’t asleep by now.

"Seo-ya number one! Wow, you look like you fell from the sky. You’re so pretty" he gushes, rushing over to hug me and I laugh.

"You mean that?" I ask quietly and Taesan looks at me with softness.

"Yah Kang Taesan! Are you doing your job right? I gave your marriage my blessings, you should be worshipping the ground he walks on" Minjae points at Taesan accusingly and Taesan huffs.

"I’ll ship a cage and muzzle to you for the wild cat, Junho" Taesan says and Minjae gasps again.

"I’ll deal with you when you’re back" Minjae says and harumphs.

"Let’s go?" Taesan asks and I nod.

I take his hand and we walk out of the house together. As we get closer to his car, I look up at his face.

"Where are we going?"

"Anywhere and nowhere" he responds.

"What does that mean?" I ask in confusion.

"You control where we go. If you want us to stop, we stop, if you want us to walk, we walk. We’ll visit every place you ever walk by and got looked down on for being a male omega" he says and my heart swells.